addiction

I try not to think about the complex things that suround my life every day, i try to relax, to be "normal" but i´ve come to a conclusion that every one is hiding something that they know society would not accept. People create their own addictions not only to drugs, alcohol, cegarettes, sex and tv. People create needs that have to be met in order to keep going in their lifes. yet if someone who has problems tries to get help everyone marks him/her as a freak or somebody that should not be around anyone. What are we to the people that think they´re "normal"? no one has the right to lablel a person just because of how the live their life, even more they should be congratulated for not falling under the control of society. I CONGRATULATE THOSE WHO LIVE THEIR LIFE TO THE BEST THEY CAN WITH NO REGRETS!. And for those who think they´re "normal" i tell them to get over those addictions and become what they have always wanted to be.

voces

Fucking voices inside my head won´t let me sleep in peace, waking me up in the middle of the night for no good reason. Still i try to erase them from my mind, to forget them and sleep in peace. Someone help me to rest!!

life

Going crazy because of this fucking duality, can´t be myself infront of my "friends" and family because they wouldn´t understan me. Hoping that time goes faster for all of those dull moments that i spend alone. I cant belive that i have fucked up so many times that i´m in this situation, because of what other people want or wanted in the past, why can´t they let me make my own choices and my own mistakes? Let me live my own fucking live so that if i do or don´t do something is in my head the remorse of that choice, and not live thinking "what could have happend if i did that?" because somebody else made that decision for me. LET ME LIVE MY LIFE!!!!

trapped

Always looking for a way out of this misery, finding that all the doors are locked and every window is close shut. I feel so trapped in my own head, can´t find anyone like me to talk to, to ask for help or at least not to be alone anymore. How can everyone live as if nothing is wrong when their dying inside? i´m done with this trap that are my own thoughts, Fuck the simplistic world that we live in, i´m tired of it. Is there anyone who feels the same? or am i to keep living all alone inside my head still trapped?

the arms of sorrow

Esta es una de mis canciones favoritas de Killswitch Engage

The Arms Of Sorrow

Imprisoned inside this mind
Hiding behind the empty smiles
So simple (the anguish)
As it haunts me
Crawling back into the dark

Running, always running, into the distance
Stop me before I bleed, again
The echoes of my voice
Follow me down
The shadows I cast
Follow me down

Deeper I'm falling
Into the arms of sorrow
Blindly descending
Into the arms of sorrow

There must be serenity

The echoes of my voice
Follow me down
The shadows I cast
Follow me down

Deeper I'm falling
Into the arms of sorrow
Blindly descending
Into the arms of sorrow

The demon of my own design
This horror must not remain

Deeper I'm falling
Into the arms of sorrow
Blindly descending
Into the arms of sorrow

There must be serenity

There must be deliverance

Deeper I'm falling

Blindly descending

FUCK

i don´t know how to get away from all this shit that goes on inside my head, people talking about dissapointment, how i let them down, that i don´t do anything all day long and that i should be more responsible on the thing i do. i only have two words for all of those people that like to talk about other people and don´t look at themselfs, those two words are "FUCK OFF", leave people to make their own mistakes. if they do something wrong or they get bad grades its on them and they don´t need anyone to remind them of that. FUCK all the people that are not happy just living their own life that they have to mess with other people´s lifes. don´t know how many will read this but for those who do plaese let me know if you feel the same way.

Dark And Cold Nights

every nite i go to my bed but i can´t sleep, no matter what i do i can´t find a way to calm myself and sleep. i see figures in every corner, hear voices that are not there, i know is al in my head but still i feel like some one is watching me. what am i suposse to do?? i dont have anyone to talk to nor any one who wants to listen, i feel so alone, if only someone knew the real me i would feel better. and yet i feel scare that if someone knew this side of me, the dark and cold side of me, they would run away. still i wait for that someone that understans me and accepts everithing i am, still i wait through the dark cold nights

la primera entrada

este es mi primer blog y la primera entrada del mismo. No soy muy bueno escribiendo y espero que pueda mantener este blog al dia con las cosas e intereses propios. Empesare hablando sobre mi, soy una persona algo tímida a quien le gusta estar con sus amigos y hablar de todo tipo de cosas, también soy algo polifacetico pues en un momento puedo estar feliz pero al siguiente puedo no estarlo. Mi vida ha estado llena de momentos tanto buenos como malos, felices como tristes, creo que eso es normal para todo el mundo pero si me ven en alguno de esos momentos no creerían que estoy alterado o deprimido pues mis sentimientos siempre los mantengo dentro de mi. Esa es una de las razones por las cuales hoy estoy aquí escribiendo en este blog, para intentar sacar todas estas emociones y sentimientos que llevo dentro.