life

Going crazy because of this fucking duality, can´t be myself infront of my "friends" and family because they wouldn´t understan me. Hoping that time goes faster for all of those dull moments that i spend alone. I cant belive that i have fucked up so many times that i´m in this situation, because of what other people want or wanted in the past, why can´t they let me make my own choices and my own mistakes? Let me live my own fucking live so that if i do or don´t do something is in my head the remorse of that choice, and not live thinking "what could have happend if i did that?" because somebody else made that decision for me. LET ME LIVE MY LIFE!!!!