Divided

Divided between what I want and what i should do. I should stop thinking about you and saying things without knowing the situation your going through. But still I want to be part of that journey everybody calls life. Blaming only myself for being such a stupid coward as to not say anything when I had the chance. I keep dreaming of what could have been, and just waiting to see if I get another chance to say those things. The saddest thing is that I keep waiting even to see if you left even one word in this stupid thing, but for me even one word is worth waiting.

missing a piece

Why am i so stupid to let every chance i get pass me by? I can´t take this feeling of emptiness inside my heart. I´m too late to do anything and too stuborn too change into what they want me to be. I´m lost in this sea of choises that present themselfs with little oportunity to think about the consequences of my actions. I tried to do everything i could to understand why you change in such a way, yet none of this makes sence becouse you where a free creature with no ties to anything but now you seem to be in a prision of your own making, so hiden away that i could not find you. for all that matters i miss the talks that went on for hours into the night. But this is what it is and only you can get your freedom back, as for me i´ll wait until it´s my time to say good bye to talk to you again.

trapped

Always looking for a way out of this misery, finding that all the doors are locked and every window is close shut. I feel so trapped in my own head, can´t find anyone like me to talk to, to ask for help or at least not to be alone anymore. How can everyone live as if nothing is wrong when their dying inside? i´m done with this trap that are my own thoughts, Fuck the simplistic world that we live in, i´m tired of it. Is there anyone who feels the same? or am i to keep living all alone inside my head still trapped?