THE WORLD

As darkness lurks around every corner, the only way to keep being myself is not to give in to the society that declares anyone with a free mind as wierd or crazy, well here I am, a crazy member of this world, not to be tamed by what other people say. It is of great importance to change for good but still keep being who you are, or you´ll get lost in the monotony that "normal" people call life. There are not many of us left free in this world, either they are locketed up or they have turn arround thei´re true nature to become the same as those who call themselves normal. Don´t give in to the grred that has this world consuming itself, destroing the only thing that can help us live a good life. Keep beliving in anything that helps you mantain faith in humanity, because one day that faith will be the only thing that´ll keep us from killing one another.

Divided

Divided between what I want and what i should do. I should stop thinking about you and saying things without knowing the situation your going through. But still I want to be part of that journey everybody calls life. Blaming only myself for being such a stupid coward as to not say anything when I had the chance. I keep dreaming of what could have been, and just waiting to see if I get another chance to say those things. The saddest thing is that I keep waiting even to see if you left even one word in this stupid thing, but for me even one word is worth waiting.

another way to die-disturbed

the situation

Lost inside my head, looking for a light but it seams everything i say or do turns around to hurt me. I don´t know how to express myself anymore, all those dear to me are thinking twice before talking to me. What is the meaning of my existance if every body that knows the real me leave to a place where I can´t contact them. this is my darkest hour and only those who only see my exterior are surrounding me, I feel like I´m in a bubble isolated from everyon. Don´t know how to get throu this but this situation has to change. so the only thing I can do is wait for anyone who wants to help.

a la mierda primavera

stupify

missing a piece

Why am i so stupid to let every chance i get pass me by? I can´t take this feeling of emptiness inside my heart. I´m too late to do anything and too stuborn too change into what they want me to be. I´m lost in this sea of choises that present themselfs with little oportunity to think about the consequences of my actions. I tried to do everything i could to understand why you change in such a way, yet none of this makes sence becouse you where a free creature with no ties to anything but now you seem to be in a prision of your own making, so hiden away that i could not find you. for all that matters i miss the talks that went on for hours into the night. But this is what it is and only you can get your freedom back, as for me i´ll wait until it´s my time to say good bye to talk to you again.

duality

before i forget

alone i break

As she arrives my body fells less like my own. I don´t know why this is happening again after so long, but you who help me embrace my two sides, who help bring peace to my world that was in a haze of oblivion. You, the only one to whom I have told the truth about "him", you are missing. And for better or for worse I´m left here to face all this without the first soul like mine I´ve met. This might be my last words in this world for I´m not sure when I´m going to wake up again. I´m sorry to tell you this a little to late but as they say "better late than never". no matter where you are, no mater when you read this, you will know it´s for you.

New Beggining

At last I take contol of the mess that "he " caused. Sorry to all of you who dont understand what I am, but that is better left alone. No more explanations of what I´m doing. The freedom I taste right now is the swetest thing I´ve tasted and I won´t let it go, so deal with this new being that walks around you because I´m not going back.

T.N.T. Death Metal

My inspiration is gone, my whole being is screaming cuz I let u go. Half of me is howling for you. The other half happy because you found someone that cares about you. life is kicking my ass but I wont let myself down. As for you, I´m going to keep waiting for my oportunity and this time I won´t make the same mistake. It feels cold, this pain but still i must go on, for every bad choice I took, I have to make it right.

FUCK

story 2

The sun was shining the next morning when steve woke up. He had a headache because of the drinks he had last nite. As he put hte alkazetzer in a glass of water he started to remember the night before, he could only remember that his friends introduce him to the 3 girls that where in a table near a corner, he tried to remember their nams but only remember one. He didn´t know why but the only name he remember was the name of the beautiful girl he met before he saw his friends, her name was Katherine. After drinking the alkazetzer steve went to wash his face to the bathroom. As he was filling his hand with water he saw some numbers in black ink in his left hand. He froze for a second, thinking about katherine, wandering if that was her phone number. He stoped the water and read the writings in his hand, it was definatly a phone number but when he read the name closely it wasn´t katherin´s, it was some other girl´s name. He started to remember what had happend last night.
-"Hey steve why don´t you hang out with us for a while?" asked Albert.
-"I don´t know al, didn´t you have a date tonite?" aswerd Steve.
-"Look at the table near the corner steve" said Albert.
As steve turned to look at the table he saw three girls . Two of them he didn´t look familiar, but the third one was the girl he saw when he was sitting in the bar.
-"It looks like ur doble date got change into a triple date." said Matt smiling.
-"What do you mean?" aked Steve.
-"I mean that our dates brought a friend and since your here why not go out with them" answered Matt.
-"I don´t know guys i was just drinking some beers and going home, i´m not even well dressed" said Steve.
-"Come on steve, do it for us" said Albert.
-"Ok, but you owe me one" told them Steve.
Steve finished his beer and with albert and matt went to the table where the girls where. Steve sudenly heard the phone, he got to the phone and answered it.
-"Hello?" said Steve.
-"Steve-o, how are you today?" somebody answered from the other end of the phone.
-"Not so loud ryan, i have a hang over." said Steve.
-"Oh, sorry man, so what did you do last night?" asked Ryan.
-"I don´t remember much just htat i went to the bar we usually go to. There i met up with matt and albert who had a dobble date, from them on i still don´t remember." Steve told him.
-"I see, well i was just checking upon you. Talk to you tomorrow for next weeks birthday party." said Ryan.
-"Ok ryan, bye." said Steve.
After hanging up the phone, steve went back to his bed to lay down and try to remember what else happend last night.
to be continued....

story 1

He was sitting at the bar drinking a cold beer thinking how to get his life back on track. Out of no where he felt the door of the bar open and turned around to see who was going in or out. A few seconds past before he realized that he was staring at the most beautiful woman he had ever seen. He just turned around and started thinking how to get near her and meet her, while he was lost in his head there was a voice right behind him:
-"Can i get a beer?" he heard her ask.
He turnd around again to find her there smiling at him then he looked into her eyes and was lost in that sea. He didn´t notice whene she left, he was still lost in there, those eyes that were like the ocean deep and dark. After a couple of minutes he finaly woke from his trance and tried to find her in the bar. after only 2 seconds he found her again with 2 women that he thought were her friends. So he left her alone but couldn´t keep his head from thinking about her. He suddenly heard a voice call:
-"Steve!".
When he looked he found his friends there all nice and groomed. He whent to meet them half way to the exit.
-" Hey man long time no see." said Albert.
-"Yeah dude, where have you been?" asked Matt.
-" Hey guys how is it going? what are you doing out here tonite?" asked Steve.
-" We got a doble date with some chicks who told us to meet them here" Said matt.
-"Nice!" answerd Steve.
Albert searched the bar with his eye to find thier dates. in 1 second he realized they where 3 of them insted of two wich meesed his plans on taking his date home tonite. then he got a great idea.
-"Hey steve what are you going to do tonite?" asked Albert.
-"Nothing. Why?" said Steve.
-"Why don't you hang out with us for a while?" answerd Albert.
to be continued...

The moon is in my favor, i feel calm and happy. But there is something that worries me and that is the fact that "he" has been too quiet for a long time, i don´t like this "calm before the storm" shit. I still don´t know how much time is left before i´m gone but i´ll try my besto to keep him locked up for as long as i can.

no long before my time is up. He´s growing stronger bit by bit and soon he´ll take over me. But i´m not scare because no matter what my essence will stil be there, if i fall under his control i don´t know what could happen so please forgive me if i harm you in any way because it may not be me.

No more of this bullshit, I´m tired of you and still you keep coming up again fighting me, trying to stay out of the prision i made inside this mind we share. i don´t hate you but i don´t like you either. Please keep quiet in those times of happynes i get. I promes you will be free from your prision but only when the people around me understands what you are, so please don´t hate me.